Charitivity. Day 3

The next week (May 23rd 2015), we had our last visit to Hati Suci. There, we were told to present out robots, diorama, and setting. In my group, they make or build a house which they called it Robot Family. The story is that they want to build a home for robots because humans created robot and robots protect humans. Therefore, humans make home for robots to chill and enjoy. There, they can hang out and feel a family. After finishing the diorama, we presented our project. Fortunately, and through hard work and creativity, our group was picked as the 1st winner. We got some prize and souvenir from the committee, but we gave it all to the children. As usual, we ended our visit by a photo session

Charitivity. Day 2

The day after our visit (precisely at May 17th 2015), we came back to Hati Suci, that time, we worked as a larger group. Some of us was painting the robot, and the children were so busy making the diorama or the setting for their robot as a background story. We didn't finish the diorama though. But the event organizer said that we'd come back next week to finish it. So that's all about day 2.

Charitivity. Day 1

The next day after workshop, we went to an orphanage named "Hati suci". There, we were assigned to guide a child and help them to build a robot. The name of the child that I paired with is Jessica (also called Ping-ping). I also have Genesius Hartanto and Collin Power in my team. Here, we taught her the process and how to make robot from trash, just like our workshop the day before. At first we told her to think about what kind of robot she wanted and then tell her to pick the material that she wanted to use in the robot and the detail of the robot. I help her designing and doing the architecture stuff with the robot, Collin helped in technical and material for the robot, and Gene helped in cutting, gluing, and finishing. After about 2 hours, we finished our robot and we four were satisfied with the result. Again, after we finished our visit with a photo session of all the participant and Hati Suci orphanage children.

Charitivity. Workshop: Let's Make a Robot

So, not so long ago, there's this event in my boarding house, it;s called charitivity: charity through creativity. This event is made by "Duta Binusian" from BINUS Square.

In this workshop (May 15th 2015), we have a workshop to prepare ourselves with some knowledge about how we can made a robot from trash. In this workshop, we have 2 people from Lumintu community to teach us how. At first they showed us the robots they made. Then they explained that the trash has already been cleansed with bacteria killer so that we didn't get any germ. After that we was told to made our own robot with our own imagination, we also have a glue gun and a steel cutter ready from them to make our robot. This robot making after about 1 and a half hour, we take our robot to Lumintu to be paint-sprayed. After that we finished our workshop with a photo session of all the participant.

Here's some photos of what the workshop looked like

Sedikit relaksasi malam-malam sambil minum kopi

Ya lu mau share #saveini #saveitu #prayforini #prayforitu berapa banyak pun, Indonesia ga bakal berubah2. Lu pikir kenapa banyak org2 kek gitu di indo ? Ya karna org2 baik, pintar, berpotensi, berbakat dll di indo berusaha keras supaya cpt2 keluar dr sini =)) Bukan masalah siapa presidennya, gubernurnya, walikotanya, pak rt nya, emang udah sampah banget orang2 nya emang. Kenapa ? Merasa kurang setuju ? Ya biasa sih, banyak aja yg ga sadar kl emg seperti inilah adanya indo. Kenapa banyak org ga sadar kl kita semua sampah ? Because when everybody's a trash, nobody's a trash. "Sampah" itu udah kayak emang sifat aslinya kita, udah ga bisa dibilang "sampah", emang berasa natural aja gitu. Kl lu ga ngerasa sampah, ataupun ga merasa sekeliling lu sampah, yaaa lu udah terbiasa dgn semua ini hahahaha. Udah tempat natural selection indo mah, kl ga keluar, cpt mati lu =)))))

Happy Halloween err I mean, Valentine

I don't understand love. They say being in love doesn't always mean being happy, so what's the point ? They say being in love can change yourself entirely, so what's the point ? They say if you've fallen in love, then you know the real meaning of pain, so why ? Why do people need love ? Why do people want love ? Why do people want to be loved ? Is love that amazing ? I don't undestand. I've lived a long loveless life and I can stand still on my own till today. So I don't understand. Why do people crave for love. They've done something really disgusting and claim that they did it for love. So I'm gonna ask you, what's so amazing about love ?

Kill kill kill......blood !

Funny how people said "video games make people violent", it's actually the complete opposite. Humans ARE violent. Video games actually suppress human's violent nature. How ? They satisfy it in games. They punch, they fight, they murder, they KILL. Why ? Why not, killing is fun afterall don't you think ? Don't you just get the pleasure when you watch they fall ? The excitement when you feel their blood ? The tremble when they finally stop moving ? The goosebump when you hear their  scream ? The smile on your face when they eventually stop breathing ? There's nothing wrong with me, it's completely normal for humanbeing, right ? There's nothing wrong with me, right ? (⌒-⌒)

Kantai Collection ( KanColle ) Quote

"Don't hesitate to tell the people you care about the feelings you have for them. Because they may not be there tomorrow." - Akagi.

Kokoro Connect; Taichi and Iori's "talk"

Iori: [ Were we ever in love with each other? ]

Taichi: [ I think we were... At least I believe it that way. Even though it was a premature love. ]

Iori: [ I guess you're right, I believe so too... I'm sorry. I've been an immature girl. ]

Taichi: [ No, I should be the one apologizing. But, thank you. ]

Iori: [ No, I should be thanking you. Really. Thank you very much. ]

Taichi: [ I never looked at your true nature properly, I've only been pursuing an ideal image all these time... ]

Iori: [ No, not at all... Did you? ]

Taichi: [ I'm pretty sure I did... ]

Iori: [ That being said, I'm very happy that you're willing to fall in love with me... Honest! ]

Taichi: [ Ahh... Thank you. ]

Iori: [ I had loved you too. ]

Taichi: [ Had loved...? ]

Iori: [ ...The I in the past really did love you, but that was when I was clueless about many things, and misunderstood many things. And then... I've changed. ]

Taichi: [ Indeed, you really have changed. ]

Iori: [ Or should I say I've returned to normal? In any case, I've changed. For me, it was a very dramatic change. Not just from this time... Tons have happened after all. ]

Taichi: [ Yeah. ]

Iori: [ Hence I want to restart everything from scratch... Sorry, I'm being so irresponsible. ]

Taichi: [ Not at all. If I went through that much as well, I would choose to do the same. Not to mention, I think your change was great. And speaking of irresponsible, I could say the same for myself too. I mean, I did love you, but truth to be told... it felt like I only indulging myself about being in love. ]

Iori: [ Ah, I know how that feels. ]

Taichi: [ You do right? Because... love is amazing. ]

Iori: [ It is amazing! How should I put it... It's too complicated for words! ]

Taichi: [ I was thinking, love is irresponsible to begin with right? Of course, it's best to be honest with each other, but there's no reason to be bound by responsibility, or worry about what the other thinks and keep holding yourself back... right? Though I must admit I'm just copying a certain somebody. ]

Iori: [ Love is a difficult question... In fact, I'm not even sure if I understood the meaning of being friends. But I'm not supposed to think about these with logic right? ]

Taichi: [ Er... I don't know the answer to that either! ]

Iori: [ Right? Hm~ I'd say, it would be like the feeling falling in love with someone, or someone falling in love with you. The sentiment in your heart, feel it, think about it... ]

Taichi: [ And then one step at a time, slowly advance forward. ]

Iori: [ ...Ew, you sound like an old man! ]

Taichi: [ Don't call me an old man... ]

Iori: [ Then~ Hurry up and go out with someone already. ]

Taichi: [ Yeah, you're right. Speaking of which, I could say the same for you too. ]

Iori: [ Mhm. Though, that someone..., ...won't be either one of us again right? ]

Taichi: [ I... thought so too. How should I say it, we... Ours was an extraordinary love, did I say it right? ]

Iori: [ Yup. I was thinking of that too. It was premature, but it was without a doubt, real love. And exactly because of that... there's no way for us to easily mend it. ]

Taichi: [ Right. ]

Iori: [ By the way, this conversation is embarrassing! There's no way I could say any of these if we were face to face, not even on the phone. It's only at this time, in this place, that I'm able to say it. ]

Taichi: [ Should we thank this situation... this phenomenon? ]

Iori: [ Hell no! I hate it. In no way would I even think of thanking it! Ah, it's almost time... Say, how did I even know? Actually, what's even going on right now? I suppose I haven't been sleeping well lately. I was about to collapse so I kinda took a nap... What's the situation right now? ]

Taichi: [ ...You know, I think we're better off not to worry about it too much. ]

Iori: [ ...I guess. In that case, I have something to tell you in the end! ]

Taichi: [ I have something to tell you too. ]

[ It's great to be able to fall in love with you. ] [ It's great to be able to fall in love with you. ]

New year, same hope

2014 mungkin ga banyak yg terjadi bagi gua. 2014 mungkin bukan tahun terbaik bagi gua. 2014 terkesan sedikit "meh" bagi gua. 2014 mungkin tahun yang sedikit membosankan bagi gua. 2014 ga banyak naik turun. Yaaa meninjau ke belakang, mungkin hidup gua emang ga terlalu banyak naik turun juga sih =))

Tapi 2014 yg paling banyak merubah gua.

2014 yg paling banyak membuat memori bagi diri gua sendiri. 90% dari 2014 gua habiskan di kamar sendiri.

Orang2 bilang gua pendiam,  meskipun rasanya gua udah banyak bicara. Orang bilang gua ansos, walaupun gua sudah berusaha embrace communication. Papa mama gua bahkan bilang "lu selama liburan ga terdengar suara lu", meskipun gua berusaha kumpul bareng.

Introvert. Overall 2014 gua memang berusaha untuk ga terlalu banyak interaksi dengan org lain.

Tapi sekarang muncul lah 2015. Gua ga kayak kebanyakan orang yang wish & resolution nya berlebihan. Wish gua utk 2015 cuma "I hope nothing change too much" aja. I'm happy with how things are working, with me who doesn't really give a fuck, and with people who don't have to give a fuck to me. Tapi gua malah berharap banyak challenge di tahun untuk gua. Seperti yg gua bilang "2014 terlalu membosankan bagi gua." New year resolution gua simple "gua mau semakin dewasa." Contohnya gua bisa berpikir jauh kedepan sebelum mengambil keputusan.

Mungkin ini aja yg gua mau sampaikan. Ah iya, Happy New Year ya buat kalian semua. Semoga wish & resolution kalian buat tahun baru ini bisa terkabul

 ＼（＾∇＾）／

Quote from Sakurasou no Pet na Kanojo by Kanda Sorata

I wanted to blame someone for my being bored. But it wasn’t anyone else fault. If you really want it, the world can change colors in a flash.

Beginning and Ending, quote from Inou-Battle wa Nichijou-kei no Naka de

All things that begin must end.
And we do our best because they end.
And because we do our best, there are new beginnings.
For things to begin, there must be endings.
Now, let's start the end of the beginning.

Quote from Sword Art Online

Asuna: Hey. If you married someone and then you discovered they had a side you didn't know, what would you think? 
Kirito: Maybe that I was lucky... 
Asuna: uhm ?
Kirito: Because if you marry someone it means you already like what you know about them, right? So if you found something new about them and fell in love with that too... wouldn't that be great ?

Another useless post

Because...of...
Love ?
HAHAHAHAHA...... CUT IT OUT !
You think people can't move on...because of love ??
No...
People can't move on because of the PAIN !
"The deeper you're in love, the more painful it gets", this bullshit sentence is not so bullshit.
You really think that the reason someone can't fall in love with someone else, because they're still on "love" with someone in the past ? No. They can't fall in love, because they remember the pain. Because every time they think of love, they feel pain. Because every time they want to move on, they're haunted by the past.
But, what do I know ? I'm just a boy that doesn't understand love...at all. Yes, I'm just a boy. What do I know ? Maybe I'm not mature enough to understand it.

Human needs to be mature enough to understand love. But, ever since we're a little, we know what PAIN is.

Mind vs Heart

What's with this reverse psychology ? Why do we keep telling that we don't want something, when we really really want that so bad. And why do we even said we need something that we can't even understand. I don't understand......

I told people to be mature, though I loved being a kid.

I expect things to go the right way, though I don't even try.

I convinced people to study well, though I buy new game every month.

I told myself that I don't really need something, though I'd give my everything to have that.

I told people to stop worrying about me, though I'm not really sure how well I'm doing.

I gave people some really good advice, though I'm stuck...with my own life.

I cheered up when people invited me to go with them, though I don't like people.

I said that I want to make many friends, though I just want to be alone.

I thought to myself that I needed love, though I don't know what love really is...

It's not the loneliness that's gonna eat me alive, it's when I think it is.

Love, quote from Toradora!

There is something in this world that no one has ever seen before.
It is gentle and sweet.
Maybe if it could be seen, everyone would fight over it.
That is why the world hid it, so that no one could get their hands on it so easily.
However, someday, someone will find it.
The person who deserves it the most will definitely find it.

<Deep title here>

Humans aren't perfect, yes obviously. And we need that imperfection, so we can love, because deep in our mind we need other people, yes I'm aware of that. But humans are devolving. We keep making excuses to every tiny little mistakes we made with these 4 words: "I am not perfect". Humans always give and take excuses. That's why we're lack of competent people nowadays.

Now lemme ask you a question. If you're perfect, can you do anything right ? The answer is simply "yes". But if you can do anything right by yourself, would you need other people ? No.

I'm imperfect and I'm clearly aware of that. We're all imperfect. But we need to stop making excuses. Mistakes are mistakes. Everybody is doing it. What we could do is learn from it, and became a better person. And if you see someone making it, tell them. There's no shame in making mistakes. What shameful is when you don't learn from it :)

Apa yang harus anda lakukan saat anda tidak sengaja men-delete atau mem-format file, folder, drive ?

File anda hilang ? Gagal instal ulang ? Setelah instal ulang drive anda ter-format ?

INGAT !! Hal pertama yang harus dilakukan adalah JANGAN PERNAH MENG-INSTALL, MENG-COPY, atau APAPUN yang menggunakan space di drive anda !! Kecuali, anda harus meng-install salah satu program ini:

1. Apabila files yang anda ingin recover dibawah 2 GB:

Anda bisa meng-install EASEus Data Recovery Free Edition di http://www.easeus.com/datarecoverywizardpro/

2. Apabila diatas 2GB dan anda tidak mau membayar $70 untuk meng-upgrade EASEus Data Recovery anda:

Gunakan Recuva : http://www.piriform.com/recuva .

Kemudian ikuti instruksi, dan INGAT ! Anda JANGAN recover file dan diletakkan di drive yang di-recover. Simpan files di Hard Disk eksternal, kemudian baru copy ke tmpt yang ingin anda gunakan untuk menyimpan files tersebut.

Kesimpulan:

1. jangan copy/install apapun ke Drive yang ingin anda recover

2. Gunakan data recovery program

3. Recover ke HDD eksternal baru copy ke Drive yg anda tuju.

Perpisahan termanis ?

"Jadikan ini perpisahan yang termanis, yang indah dalam hidupmu, sepanjang waktu. Semua berakhir, tanpa dendam dalam hati. Maafkan semua salahku, yang mungkin menyakitimu." Ya ini adalah sepenggal lirik dari sebuah lagu yang berjudul "Perpisahan Termanis", oleh Lovarian. Kenapa sih gua milih lagu ini sebagai pembuka tulisan ini ? Ada ceritanya, oo ya sebelumnya, boleh lah yak sekali2 gua pake bahasa indo buat artikel blog gua :D

Cerita ini berawal dr SMA, seperti banyak cerita romansa-fiksi kebanyakan, saat gua masih kelas 1. Ya, gua harus cerita semuanya dari awal. Saat gua masih culun, blm punya pacar, dan perjaka tentunya (sampe skrg masih dong), saat gua mulai berpikir satu hal yang ngerubah drastis hidup gua, yaitu "siapa sih maria ozawa ?"... Salah, bukan itu. Hmmm oh iya, gua mikir, "apa ya rasanya punya pacar ?" Tipikal bajingan2 SMA lah. Tpi emg pada saat itu gua ga pernah merasakan sesuatu yg disebut rasa suka, dari satu cewek pun (gua mengira gua homo waktu itu).....

Sampai suatu saat, gua tertarik dengan seekor betina, nama samarannya Nana (yang dipakai untuk casting skill di dota itu, yg dibawah health). Nah gua ga ada pengalaman dalam hal pdkt, ngide updkt sendiri pake cara gua. Yaaa akhirnya sih gagal sebelum nembak #akurapopo. Dr sini juga gua ngerasa gua blm bisa atau blm siap pacaran (sama cewek ya).

Akhirnya gua menjalani hidup gua seperti biasa lagi. Gua main sama temen2 gua, biasalah cowok, cerita ngejek, cerita lucu, cerita cewek, cerita dewasa (oke ini terlalu jauh). Dan ada satu orang, cewek, ini dia ngeselin banget sumpah. Tpi yaaa, I bullied her, she bullied me, we are bully-bullyan. Ini sumpah gua pernah anjingin dia, demi apapun. Keselnya udah luar biasa. Tpi lu tau lah, kl kata tmn jomblo gua yg suka memberikan relationship advice, "jarak antara cinta dan benci itu setipis kertas". Mulai gua ngerasain sesuatu yg beda. Seakan2 gua pengen terus ganggu dia, dan gua pengen diganggu (aneh gua waktu sma mah, ga usah ditanya), timbullah sebuah rasa #hasek.

Makin penasaran, gua mulai sms (orang lain udah pake BB, kami pakenya N70 sama E72, nokia is the best). Diajak ngomong, nyambung. Diajak bercanda, lucu. Diajak tidur, ga mau (kayaknya gua udah rusak bgt). Oo iya, gua blm kasih tau siapa cewek ini. Dia pinter, baik (tpi emg kl bercanda, agak jahanam2 gitu, sama kayak gua lah), gua ga menemukan nama samaran yang tepat buat dia, jadi kita panggil saja dia Bambang.

Eventually, gua suka ama si Bambang ini, Gua tanya aja baek2 secara innocent ke dia, "lu pernah pacaran belum ?", dia jawab "belum". Nah, pantes gua ga ditolak mentah2, ternyata dia juga blm pacaran.

Singkat cerita, gua nembak dia tanggal 9 Juli 2011. LEWAT SMS (cups beud), dan yg gua bilang adalah "gua suka sama lu, mau ga lu jadi cewek gua ?" (Ini setelah gua tinjau, memang bego banget). Dan, ada miskom, gua pikir dia nolak. Gua lgsg SETERES !!!

Akhirnya tanggal 24 di bulan yg sama, dia sms gua, gua bales, baru bbrp sms, gua ketiduran. Besoknya, dia sms gua lagi. Sms, sms, sms, dia nanya "gua boleh nanya sesuatu ga ?", gua jawab "boleh, apa ?", dia nanya lg "lu masih suka ga sama gua ?", kaget tpi ttp kalem, gua bales "masih kok, mbang", dibales ama si bambang "lu ga nanya gua suka sama lu ato nggak ?", gua mulai berharap "hmmm lu suka ga sama gua ?", dia jawab "suka :3", gua tancep gas "hmm kl gitu lu mau ga jadi pacar gua ?", dia balas "mauu." YEEYAAAAAH, potong kambing, potong sapi, dikejar warga (karna bukan kambing & sapi gua, gua main potong aja), selamat, gua loncat kegirangan, gua banting tv, gua diskors uang belanja sebulan saka orang tua gua, gua nangis, dan akhirnya gua memulai kehidupan pacaran.

Lembar baru kehidupan gua terbuka. Gua ga usah ceritain lengkap gimana gua pacaran deh, terjebak di ruang nostalgia ntar #akupororo. Intinya 2 tahun kami berjalan, semuanya baik2 aja. Gua sayang dia, dia sayang gua, yaaa gua emg udah ada komitmen pengen sama2 dia terus. Tpi yg namanya hidup, if everything's alright, it's loading up shit, ready to be launched directly to your life and leaving you, right there, wrecked. Shirt story, we broke up. Well, to be honest, I broke up with her. Dan gua blm bisa memaafkan perbuatan gua saat itu.

Ea kita sudah sampai pada bagian galau dari tulisan ini. Dari tadi kan lucu2an terus. Padahal garing yak. Ni yang baca udah ngomong dlm hati "anjing ini kenapa gua masih aja baca artikel orang tolol satu ini ya ? Tpi mau berhenti pun nanggung." HAHAHAHA KEPO SIH LU ! Oke, konsentrasi, permisi sebentar *ke wc* (seakan2 amat penting untuk pembaca untuk tau bahwa gua pergi kencing).

Anyway, gua ngerasa gua itu orang paling bangsat di dunia. Masalahnya, si bambang ini nangis dan ngemis2 ke gua minta balikan, tpi gua ga mau. I know what y'all are thinking right now, "he's the biggest jerk I've ever known". Ya, gua ngaku, gua bajingan.

Dan sekarang, kejadiannya kira2 9 bulan setelah gua putusin dia. Dan gua ngerasa, dia blm bisa maafin gua. Gua akhirnya suatu hari, saat abangnya ultah, gua line dia (cie skrg udah line) "mbang, happy birdday buat abangnya yaa. Btw, gua mau minta maaf, atas kejadian2 masa lalu, gua harap dia kasih bisa berteman", dia balas dikit, gua balas, trus dia ga balas lagi, kayaknya sih chat gua di-delete tanpa di-read. Gua line lagi, dia cuma balas "._.", gua tanya kenapa dan dia ga balas lg line gua. Wajar, karna selang 9 bulan ini, gua udah pernah pacaran 2 bulan, dan skrg udah putus juga. Dan hal ini membuat kalian bertambah berpikir kl gua emg seekor anak bangsat.

Akhirnya, gua memutuskan untuk minta maaf ke dia dgn penjelasan2, serta gua bilang kl gua masih mau temenan, dan gua ga pernah lupa kata2 dia waktu itu. Intinya si Bambang bilang gini "gua masih terlalu kecewa untuk ngeliat nama lu, Nick." Dia memang ga salah, tpi gua berusaha baikan untuk menjalin hubungan baik alumni lah intinya. Gua minta baikan, dan chat gua cuma di-read. Mungkin dia masih sakit hati, itu wajar, tpi gua pengen, kalau kita baek2, gua pengen kita pisah tanpa ada dendam lagi. Mungkin bukan skrg, ada saatnya gua ngomong ke lu lagi.......mungkin empat mata.

Choose!

"Never make promises when you're happy. Never make decisions when you're angry."

Or what stay in your head is regret. You walk everyday with your head down. You'd never forgive yourself. You live everyday full of regret.

You are heartbroken, not by other people, but by your own choice. That's the worst type of heartbreak I've ever had. And it'll take very long time to recover, I knew it.

You said that moving on is easy, but this one's different. You'd never get it out of your head, not even one second.

I'd do anything to go back in time and apologize, but I can't. It's too late now, way too late. And now I have to deal with it. Until I don't know when.

I'd never thought that I could be that foolish to let her go. She is perfect. I lose a perfect woman. I could have stayed with her until this moment but no, that's not what I did.....

People change. People will take a lot of serious damage in life, before they learn more valueable lesson. Like a pencil, it gets better as it's sharpen :)